What’s God teaching you recently?

My friend asked it last night at dinner.

He’s teaching me that there’s so much I don’t know. The Paul class started it for me. I started to realize that there’s so much more to scripture and God that I didn’t know. I didn’t know I didn’t know it. And I didn’t have a need to dive into the questions. But just like he’s showing me so much of the world and how much I don’t know, he’s showing me more of himself and in scripture that I didn’t know. Out of my comfort zone in culture and in God. It’s new territory. And I can feel it physically. It’s like I can feel it in my heart that it’s stretching and growing. And it’s painful and challenging but so good.

He’s teaching me that He hears me. Seriously it’s almost comical how he has been answering prayers in this season. I really feel that before a thought is on my mind he knows it. And then something happens where only God would know what was on my heart and I needed it. Kinda creepy and beautiful. Feeling so seen and known by God. He sees me, He knows me, He hears me, He loves me. Which has led me to trust him and love him more.

Seeing my own failures. It’s been hard to connect with people back home. Between the time difference and busy opposite schedules. It’s hard to keep up with relationships with people I love. And I feel like I’m failing. But also to see that in so many other areas. Traveling is hard on your body and mind. And I have felt my own weaknesses so tangibly when I am at the end of myself. And seeing so much of my need for Jesus. In myself I am grumpy and hangry. And there’s been so much reliance on Him. I am empty so he can fill me. Seeing my need and dependence on Him.

God has been so good to me. God knew how hard it was for me to leave my community and life in Pittsburgh. And one hard part was leaving my gym. I love doing CrossFit and I was frustrated that I would never find another really great gym that was only a mile away from my apartment. With friends and coworkers I could workout with and get to know people in my community. But I gave that up to the Lord because I knew he was calling me to something else. And he’s so kind, because I found a gym here. Of all things there is a really great crossfit gym, less than a mile from my apartment. I can walk there, they speak English but it’s also a great way to practice my Italian and I’m making so many new friends with people in the community. What a gift. Something I didn’t want to give up to God and I opened my hand and he put something else in.